Four months!

Today marks our four month anniversary. There are some moments when it feels like just yesterday Jeff picked me up to carry me across the threshold; then there are other times when it feels like I've been here for years. I am amazed at how smoothly and seamlessly this transition has felt. I am astounded at the depth of love and peace that abides in this home. I am in awe of how well the children have adjusted to having me in the home and all the changes that have come about because of my presence. I am full of admiration for their willingness to love me unconditionally and to let me love them in return. I am humbled on a daily basis to see the Lord's hands in our lives. I have felt His guidance and strength as we've traversed these uncharted waters. I am grateful for His comfort and peace as I've struggled with emotions of finding my place in this family. I feel incredibly blessed to have Jeff as my eternal companion. By far, he is the most faithful, humble, patient, compassionate, understanding, sympathetic, kind, gentle man I've ever known. I don't know what I did to deserve him, but I am so thankful that he chose me. I am eternally appreciative of his love and respect. I am literally the luckiest girl in the world! I never imagined that I would marry a divorced man with four children, but I can't imagine being happy any other way. I have learned so much during the past four months. I have felt myself grow and progress in ways I could have never imagined. I realize that there will still be ample refining fires in my future, but I know, with the love of my little family, I can endure. I have felt strength beyond comprehension. I feel it each time Jeff holds me or the kids laugh with me. I have felt it in the quiet moments when tears have fallen as I've struggled with unforeseen emotions. I know this is where I'm supposed to be. I am excited for the many more months to come...and for the eternity that awaits us.